Late last night I found out that a friend of mine from middle school had passed away from a massive heart attack a few weeks ago.
It still doesn't seem real to me, how could someone so young die like that?
I spent most of today thinking about how short life really is and did he at least get to live a little before he passed away? I don't know, we never reconnected as adults, the last time I saw him was the end of 7th grade, and I found out about his death on Face Book. I know that he had a 4 year old son, but that's pretty much it.
Then my phone rang it was my Mom with some more really bad news, my beloved Chihuahua Shakira the first dog that I ever owned as a adult died this morning.
You see when I left New York, my ex had promised to send for my dogs, Lola my other Chihuahua that passed away ironically enough last year and my Shakira. The relationship thank God didn't last very long, and I moved to Arkansas to be with my true love Shawn and got married. Shawn and I looked into getting my dogs, but thought my Mom had really bonded with them and it just didn't seemed right taking them away from her at that point.
But it will always be one of my biggest regrets in life. Shakira meant the world to me, I missed her everyday since I left New York and thought of her often. We had been through so much her and me, being robbed, I will never forget the day I returned home to my apartment and found my door kicked in, the first thing I thought was please God let Shakira be ok, and when I turned the corner and walked inside the apartment and saw her little face looking up at me, I never felt so relieved.
Now my baby girl is gone.
I know that I'm being selfish right now, Shakira was old and she and Lola are reunited again in Heaven, chasing each other around and barking up a storm, surrounded by my Dad and all my loved ones who passed away.
Maybe she's with my friend who passed away a few weeks ago, keeping him company, Shakira was good like that, I used to call her my little circus dog, always doing tricks and trying to make you smile.
I'm going to miss you forever little girl!
Times like these makes me feel so grateful for my husband, Shawn has been such a great comfort for me today. So glad our lives turned out the way it did. I just wish that Shawn could of met Lola and Shakira. He would of loved them!
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