My One Regret....

 

Late last night I found out that a friend of mine from middle school had passed away from a massive heart attack a few weeks ago.

It still doesn't seem real to me, how could someone so young die like that?

I spent most of today thinking about how short life really is and did he at least get to live a little before he passed away? I don't know, we never reconnected as adults, the last time I saw him was the end of 7th grade, and I found out about his death on Face Book. I know that he had a 4 year old son, but that's pretty much it.

Then my phone rang it was my Mom with some more really bad news, my beloved Chihuahua Shakira the first dog that I ever owned as a adult died this morning. 

You see when I left New York, my ex had promised to send for my dogs, Lola my other Chihuahua that passed away ironically enough last year and my Shakira. The relationship thank God didn't last very long, and I moved to Arkansas to be with my true love Shawn and got married. Shawn and I looked into getting my dogs, but thought my Mom had really bonded with them and it just didn't seemed right taking them away from her at that point.

But it will always be one of my biggest regrets in life. Shakira meant the world to me, I missed her everyday since I left New York and thought of her often. We had been through so much her and me, being robbed, I will never forget the day I returned home to my apartment and found my door kicked in, the first thing I thought was please God let Shakira be ok, and when I turned the corner and walked inside the apartment and saw her little face looking up at me, I never felt so relieved.

Now my baby girl is gone.

I know that I'm being selfish right now, Shakira was old and she and Lola are reunited again in Heaven, chasing each other around and barking up a storm, surrounded by my Dad and all my loved ones who passed away.

Maybe she's with my friend who passed away a few weeks ago, keeping him company, Shakira was good like that, I used to call her my little circus dog, always doing tricks and trying to make you smile.

I'm going to miss you forever little girl!

Times like these makes me feel so grateful for my husband, Shawn has been such a great comfort for me today. So glad our lives turned out the way it did. I just wish that Shawn could of met Lola and Shakira. He would of loved them!

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I Love Us....

 

5 years down, the rest of our lives to go! (:

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And As She Walked Happily Into The Sunset, She Left Behind Her Flowered Crown....

                            I don't want what you're having!

I don't want your hatred for life, or living.

I don't want your desperation or envy.

I don't want your jealousy or falsehoods.

I just want what I already have on my plate.

A good life that I'm proud of.

A life that I deserve, even if you don't want me to have it.

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Happy 10 Year Anniversary Babe!!!! ♥

10 years ago this month I met my husband....

And not in a very traditional way either, as the story goes I saw a picture of him and thought to myself, "I'm going to marry him someday", and that's exactly what I did! lol

It was love at first sight, and although it took us 5 years to actually get together and make our relationship work, it was all worth it!

I have never loved anyone as much as I love my husband, and I know that he loves me just the same!

So here's to us Babe, the past 10 years have been amazing, and the past 5 years of marriage have been more then a dream come true!

I love you so much Babe!

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Rasta Man Chant....

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Dear God....

I woke up today with so much joy in my heart!

The anticipation of spending another day living this wonderful life, how grateful I am for everything you have provided, the love, happiness, security and protection, wisdom and faith leaves me feeling so blessed. 

I haven't had a bad day in quite sometime and I owe it all to you God.

I thank you for giving me the life I have always dreamed about, surrounding me with people who truly love me and the best friends anyone can have.

Thank you for guiding me down the right path and allowing me the clarity to see that every good thing that happens isn't because of me or anyone else, just you God.

Thank you for not allowing me to dwell on the past and the people who no longer matter. Thank you for the strength you have given me to move on.

And I know that I may not be perfect, but I am so much better then I used to be.

Amen!

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Ella Habla Espanol (She Speaks Spanish)....

My journey to learning a second language started at age 4. I learn how to count to 10 in Spanish before I even started school, thanks to television programs like Sesame Street.

In high school I took 3 years of Spanish, but I never truly became fluent in that language. One of my biggest regrets in life, because I think that everyone should learn a second language. Learning a second language will help you communicate with a larger audience, you can earn more money on the job if you speak a second language and its a goal that I started long ago that I really want to finish.

So for the past few weeks I have been taking daily Spanish language lessons. I am learning how to  read and write in Spanish as well as speak it properly through this free app I found in the Apple store.  

I have been passing every test with flying colors, the 3 years of Spanish really helps, but the most important thing is that I am really enjoying my lessons.

I have also been watching a lot of Telemundo I want to feel comfortable with how I pronounce the words that I am learning, understanding it of course is very important, but speaking it correctly is everything. I don't want to murder this language lol, or sound like a tourist, I want to speak it convincingly and sound authentic as possible.

My husband thinks its great that I'm learning a second language, and I'm glad that I have his support, it gives me the drive I need to finally learn how to speak Spanish fluently. A goal that I plan on completely in the next few months. 

And hopefully this will be another thing I can check off my bucket list!

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